Friday, October 2, 2015

I Want What I Want And I Want It Right Now!

This is a short message today – I’m scheduled to be out of town next week and I’m to go into the teeth of this awful rain and flooding complicated by hurricane Joachim.
As I’m wrestling with travel plans and schedules I simply cannot seem to get the folks on the other end of the phone to accommodate me the way I expect. How odd! What is the matter with them? Are they dense? Don’t they know I am concerned and they need to bend over backward to make my trip better?
I read a quote the other day from a fellow in Alcoholics Anonymous [Michale Z of]: “I may not know how to make it better, but I sure know how to make it worse.” This is very true for me, as well. I want to “fix” things. I want to make things better, as I see them. I want to make you better. I want to make the Republican Party better. I want to make “haters” better and, if I can’t, I’ll hate them with God’s blessing … or so I tell myself.
Bottomline: I want what I want and I want it right now.
Then I remember a line in the quote I used last week from Beverly Hutchinson McNeff in this month’s “Holy Encounter” magazine:  Virtually everything we do is relatively meaningless except “…our spirit and our loving thoughts, which are eternal and the only things that are true about any situation in which we find ourselves.”  The Holy Encounter [September/October 2015, emphasis mine. []
The only truly “real” thing about me is my spirit and my loving thoughts. They are real because they are as God created and the only real things out there are those created by God. My ego – my Felix – just doesn’t count.
As I struggle to deal with travel specialists about my trip, I need to hear this message for myself: My spirit and my loving thoughts are the only things that are true. I need to forgive myself for projecting Felix’s reality on these people and for creating these images I have made and am treating as being real. That forgiveness, itself, is an act of love. That make it “really” real and true as well.
My loving thougths. My acts of forgiveness. These are all I can do within the truth of God. All else is a figment of Felix’s very limited mind.
Although these messages are mostly for me, thanks for listening. As always – feel free to forward this message to your friends, family, and those accompanying you on your spiritual journey.
#1 Oct 2015
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